Day 23

Performance Evaluation today. Oh boy!

10:30 pm
Lots to do still. When I'm stressed, I bake.

10:47 pm

OH MY GOD. This is the 4th time today that my work computer has crashed & I've had to restart. I think I'm going to scream.

Day 22

Another late night working. I cannot remember the last time I was able to go to sleep early. What I've realized though.... and it's kind of eerie. Mostly every single day, I always seem to catch the clock when it says 12:34. Good omen? Let's hope so. I need good on my side!

Back to work!

7:55 pm
Stressed like whoa. I need a good, long hug. Pronto.

Day 21

I received this photo of my godson with the caption, "Sign Here."

How can you not smile at that?!

1:48 pm

I need a coffee. Immediately.

Day 20

HALFWAY THERE! 20 more days to go!

Everyone should start their day with this song.

"Don't let 'em bring you down
Cos you start your life today
Live any thoughts you've dreamed of"

"Beautiful People" - Chris Brown ft. Benny Benassi

Day 19

During the homily at mass, there was one phrase that the priest said that stuck with me.
"There are only two things the heart desires. To love and to be loved."

Ain't it the truth.

Have a good Sunday.

ps) Thank you Amanda and Dan for the wonderful brunch! It was delicious and am now going to curl up on the couch and take a nap.

Day 18

Had an early start today. Had to go to the BMV and renew my car registration, go to the bank, go the post office, return something and drop off 6 bags of stuff to GoodWill and all before noon! Not bad. Time to make myself a tomato, onion, spinach and cheese omelet and figure out what to do for the rest of the day.

Day 17

And this is why I never get to bed on time....

Melis and I foolin' around at 1:30 in the morning.  Like my snow shovel in the background? haha.
Makes me really miss my family.

10:50 am

It's FRIDAY and I'm rockin' out to "No Americano" by Yolanda Be Cool.

Doesn't it just make you want to dance? No? Ok..then it's just me.

4:00 pm

It's about that time when we're starting to hit our wall. Time to jam out and huuuuula hooooop. Work it Jen!!

11 pm

I'm bored. Scrabble anyone? 

Day 16

In my efforts to start eating healthy, I've begun the day with vanilla greek yogurt, fresh cut strawberries, and corn flakes drizzled with honey. yum.

9:33 pm

In continuing with the strawberries...I made chocolate covered strawberries tonight. I may have... quite possibly...eaten.... 9 of them. :D

Chocolate covered strawberries are #2 on my top list of desserts. #1 being creme brulee. Deliciousness!

Day 15

And so begins crazy hail and tornado season.

Day 14

It's a Starbucks and glasses kind of day.

7:48 pm
Going to be a late night working. Time to stick these in the fridge.

Day 13

What another beautiful day out! Today went by quickly. Got quite a bit done, did some running outside and now need to do more work tonight. Work. Work. Work.

On a different note, my co-worker came into the office today with these hot, sassy shoes from White House Black Market. Now, I checked online & they don't have them available on there anymore so I have a mission for anyone who so desires to accept. If you can find me this shoe, in a size 7 at one of their stores (I know there's one at Menlo Mall), I will give you a check for it and will love you forever.

Day 12

Happy First Day of Spring!

Lots of work to do. Updating my portfolio is exhausting. What's surprising.... I'm beginning to not miss Facebook anymore. oh no.

11:42 pm
Well, been working all day with my portfolio and finally got some things up on the web. Still have more to put on but it's getting pretty late and it's starting to lightning and thunder outside. (Not that it really affects me to keep on working b/c it's raining but just seemed like a good excuse to go to bed) Feel free to check it out when you have time. --->  My Portfolio <---

Goodnight!

Day 11

A little late with this post. Today was a good and productive day. Made myself a nice breakfast, did laundry, ran outside, folded some clothes and went to my (fort wayne) family's cookout. It always makes me happy to see the kids and to spend time with my friends.

Sorry Simon, you were MIA. 

Day 10

Happy Friday!!

Today was full of many good things! Doughnuts, smoothies, 'that's what she said's', pizza, hula hooping, pay day and a co-worker's farewell get together. Things in the office have been busy lately, as it usually is and because of that, all the designers, including myself, tend to put ourselves in a little bubble to crank the work out. In doing so, the creativity falls a little short due to the haste in which we must get our projects done. My art director set up a meeting today for all the designers to take a break and to have a little fun. The task was to get in groups of two and draw a monster without lifting your pen. Both people in the group must be drawing at the same time. It was a lot of fun to be creative in a freestyle kind of way and it definitely helped to bring us out of our funk and get inspired!

 Jennifer & Susan's

Mine & Julie's

Melissa & Kris's

Day 9

Everyone decked out in green, Irish music playing in the office. All we need are some beers and we're set!

Special happy birthday to my love, Gina! :)

Day 8

It's been 1 whole week and I'm still alive! It really hasn't been easy and I'm not gonna lie; I really miss everyone and feel so out of the loop with everything. It kind of makes me sad. Still over a month to go.

I've been pretty distracted lately. Just a lot on my mind and thinking of all the things I need and hope to do. There have been slight moments where I would doubt myself a little, thinking how my 'good' isn't 'good enough' and while they are little seconds or minutes of vulnerability, it somehow seems to affect me for the rest of the day. I try to remember that at my age, I've accomplished a whole lot that not many can say that they've done. I've graduated college, I've traveled, I've worked in the city, I've lived in the country, I've loved and been heartbroken, I've done things I never thought I could do and I'm constantly learning that I should never EVER doubt my self worth. I have this urge to grow, learn and progress...something to have me move forward and discover things about myself I never knew I had or could do. It's time to take some big steps and make something great out of myself.


On that note, going to read a book then head to bed. Wear green tomorrow or you'll get pinched!

Day 7

I love how March is halfway over but sad that I still have over a month to go without Facebook.

I'm ready for July! :)

Day 6

I'd like to start off with saying, yay for more daylight!

For a Monday, it was actually a good day today. I got to take a nice break from the office and got to work in the photo studio today to help Jennifer with shots for the Sale Catalog. She gave me the opportunity to style a few shots which I had never done before resulting in me being a little uncomfortable BUT it definitely was a learning experience and that's what I need. 

With only 7 more weeks of training left before my half marathon, I really needed to run tonight. I ran 3 miles and am hoping to get to 4.5 by the end of this week. I really need to get serious with this because I'm running out of time. I need to tap into my happy place. And speaking of happy place, I got to webcam with my sister in Arizona and I swear, that girl makes me laugh like crazy. We had our usual exchanges of stories and ended it with a good dance party and before you know it..it's 10:43 pm and I didn't have time to even miss Facebook. Woo! 67 degrees this Thursday too. Double woo!

Day 5

SUNDAY!! Going to be a productive day today. Church, laundry, cleaning, vacuuming and making a few month's worth of homemade pasta sauce while playing my music real loud and dancing throughout the apartment. :)

7:24 pm
Now that I've done everything as planned, I'm sitting on the couch, bored and I'm getting a little antsy in my pantsy. It's time for a glass..... or two of wine.

Day 4

Primary objective for today and tomorrow: Stay busy and distracted as much as possible to avoid the urge to stalk people.

The great thing about what I gave up is that it has forced me to go out and really make the most of my time.  I woke up nice and early to run 2 miles, got a hair cut and went to the Fort Wayne Gets Green St. Patty's Day Festival downtown with Holly and Matt. I have been so blessed to meet such wonderful people like them and to have had them by my side during my lowest moments. We've shared so many stories from our past, our aspirations and all the things we strive for that for some reason, we hold ourselves back from achieving. They have helped to give me that push and the courage to carry out what I believe in and as I lift up my green beer, all I can say is *cheers* to you my friends and thank you.

Oh, and don't forget to spring ahead one hour tonight! :)

Day 3

Praying for those in Japan and those on the west coast. After seeing the devastating videos and photos, you start to reassess your priorities. It's a shame that for some, you need a natural disaster such as that to realize what's important.

Day 2

On a very stressful day such as today, I look to Facebook to break it up and calm me down. Without it, I'm just plain going crazy. I need to take a walk around the office....and get some chocolate.

9:28 pm
Keeping busy and baking red velvet whoopie pies. Winning.

Day 1

14 and a half waking hours of no Facebook and I'm beginning to get the shakes.

On any other given day, I wake up in the morning, brush my teeth and walk over to my laptop to get on Facebook. This morning, I got my toothbrush and started walking down the hallway only to stop midway and turn around sulking. The day just didn't seem right without my morning Facebook check but I made a commitment to myself and I plan to stick with it. 

I made my way to work, hooked up my computer and checked my email and schedule for the day. Instinctively, I opened a new tab and started to type "f". My heart dropped as I quickly remembered and discontinued typing, sulking once again. Throughout the day, I would keep glancing over thinking I would see my 'news feed' screen and every time I did that, it made me realize how addicted I was to it, especially considering I looked over almost every 15 - 20 minutes. I was able to get through the day with a few close calls and a few playful teasing from my co-workers but I knew it was when I got home, that it would affect me the most. Living alone for me has it's ups and downs. I use Facebook as a means to stay connected and communicate with friends and family back home and it also served as the thing I go to for comfort. Without it, my place just seemed quieter and lonelier. Despite that though, a sacrifice isn't a sacrifice without a struggle. I'm sure these next couple of days will be bearable but it's the weekend that I'm afraid of. Needless to say.... I really want to go on Facebook right now. 

39 more days.

Getting ready...

...and by getting ready, I mean I'm putting in extra time on Facebook before midnight hits.

11:21 pm
Alright. Notifications off, facebook shortcut removed from menu bar, here goes nothing.....